| How Does This Make Me Feel? Honestly? Like a house. anyway, other than that, everything is going swimmingly. bri and i call him the "inch" although he's more like 3 inches by now i guess... maybe more? i got out a tape measure the other day to measure exactly 3 - 3 1/2 inches. lol, and then measured out like you know, 18-22 inches, the size of a normal baby when they're born and i like flipped out! i dont think its possible for something that huge to fit inside of me (i'm 5' tall, remember...). brian laughed at me when he came in the room and i was cradling a tape measure pulled out to 20 inches in my arms. but hey! how else am i supposed to imagine it? lol. also, on another note, i said "he" was the inch earlier, but we dont know whether its really a boy yet or not. brian is conviced that its a girl (mostly i think because i think it will be boy), and doesnt want to find out til birth. at this suggestion, i laugh at his face and tell him that whether or not he chooses to plug his ears or not is up to him, but IIIII am finding out and telling everyone. and i think its a boy. so there. :) More About Being Pregnant In Case You Wanted to Know Ok so a couple days ago, for the first time ever, someone asked me if i was going to have a baby after just looking at me. haha. my first thought was, "YAYY you can tell i'm pregnant!!!" and then immediately after that it was, "oh my gosh, i look pregnant..." haha. but then i was happy again. anyway, that's all. big deal for me... haha. i look pregggnannnt! lol. oh wait, one more thing. also the other day for the first time, my weird northern husband decided that maybe it would be okay to name the baby after one of us. i dont know if its just a southern thing but where i'm from its completely normal and sometimes expected for people to give their babies not only their first and middle names, but also their maiden names! brian thought it was sooo weird that i wanted to name the baby piper elizabeth. but whatever, i think he's changed his mind after i gave him a list of names for our next ten children, all using either my names, my parents names, my grandparents names or my siblings names. i think he got jealous. Final Thoughts of the Day Gah! I am turning into a baby freak! I keep dreaming about babies ALL the time, and everytime i see a baby i stare at him (or her) and his mother to scrutinize their every move. "I bet MY baby will be just like that and wave so adoribly at everybody! Awww!" or "MY baby DEFINITELY will NEVER cry so loudly in the middle of of the grocery store like that, my babies dont do that." Its like i'm a for real walking baby freak. What the heck is that anyway? My husbands sister just had their second daughter, Layla Jane in May, and then his brother and his wife just had their second son, Samuel James, two weeks ago and i want miiiiiinnnnneeeee. NOW. And i was thinking about it the other day, like... why nine months? for real, why not like... 3? or 5? or even 7? 7! See that would make sense... God created the whole world and everything in 7 days, right? So like 7 months would make sense.... 9 months does not make sense. I just want to play with my baby NOW, is that so wrong? haha. So currently, as of this week, i feel like a big fat lump of unproductiveness. I'm not working, and i'm not in school, and all i do is sit around on this crazy website wishing my baby would come NOW. I dont ever feel like getting off the couch really, to be perfectly honest with you. And last week, when i wrote about people noticing that i was pregnant? Well that was just one person, and she was an older lady, so i think maybe she could just tell because... well i dont know why, but maybe she just could, and like... no one else can. Because i really dont feel like i look pregnant anymore, i just feel like i look fat... and yet that still doesnt stop me from eating anything everything in sight and all the while wishing there were MORE GRAPES IN THE FRIDGE DAMMIT! It's really not that bad actually, if you think about it. The pregnant life i lead should honestly have no complaining to accompany it, all i do is eat and sleep and eat some more, but... then again, i am pregnant and when you're pregnant there is an excuse for everything. And i mean, of COURSE there are SOME things that are really annoying, like the constant headaches i had for like a week, and always being tired and hungry and moody and worrying about whether your baby is okay. I thought about adding nausea and vomiting, but i never got that, so see? Another good thing... I actually thought about posting on some pregnancy website forum page thing that every pregnant person reads at some point, something along the lines of "Pregnancy is just an excuse to do whatever the heck we want and get away with it. I think we all know that it's all just in our heads," just to see what the poor hormonal and sick mommies would have to "say about that." But then i decided not to. Mostly just cause i like having friends more than having people that hate me... Honestly tho, sometimes i feel that way, you know, that its all in my head and stuff. But then sometimes the next day i want to kill the part of me that ever thought that. And like by kill, i really mean like cold bloody murder involving a screwdriver, because who the heck would say something like that when i feel $#*(##($! LIKE THIS!! Anyway. Pretty much pregnancy is the weirdest thing ever, and i think that no matter what people tell you about what it feels like to be pregnant, they're probably right, at least for a day or two. You just NEVER KNOW. :) And that's the moral of this story: Anything could happen. |
